All I think about is you....Merry Christmas Jenna  / Mommy Eades (So in love... )

Hi sweet baby.  How is your Christmas with Jesus?  Mommy bought you a little bear and it says "Little Angel" on it.  You will always be Mommy's Jennabear though.  

I miss you so much.  The pain is so strong everyday, Christmas doesn't make a difference.  Maybe because I don't care about it?  There is just no way I could ever celebrate this day again.  For your sister, I am strong.  But my heart aches Jenna, it hurts so bad. 

Everything is just unfair.  Jenna, why does everyone have their families?  Why did God take this happy life from us?  I can't ever imagining being the same on Christmas.  Daddy and I talked about what you were doing last Christmas.  We try to remember every little detail of your sweet life baby girl.  Those memories are what we cherish the most now.  I just can't believe it has been almost 9 months since I saw that face that melted my heart.

I don't know who I am anymore.  I used to look into your eyes and you would say it all.  I was confident of who I was then, maybe because I was on cloud nine with you.  Now, I just look forward to being with you.  It's not fair that you are there and I'm not.  It's not fair what happened to you. 

I owe you so much more.  I beg God for us to switch places.  I am so sorry Jenna.  Mommy is so sorry.

You will always be my no. 1 girl.  I just don't know how I am going to live this life without you.  Especially days like these when most families are happy and together, and yet, I am sitting here wondering what we did so wrong to deserve this.  

I hope you like the Christmas tree at your cross.  It is so pretty.  But as always, you deserve so much more.

I will never forget you or be the same.  My heart only beats your name....

I love you more than all the fishes in the sea baby girl.  You are my everything.  I look forward to seeing your face again...

I love you.

Mommy

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Merry Christmas Jenna  / Daddy Eades
Today has been so hard for me, alls I think about is you. You would have been so big by now and really enjoyed Christmas 07'. I love you so much, and I just wanted to tell you Merry Christmas. Your mom and I put a christmas tree at your cross, I hope you liked it baby girl. It's Christmas Eve and its dark out already.....oh how I'm dreading tommorow. How I will make it thru the day is beyond me. Christmas now means nothing, I only smile when Hayley talks about it. This is our 1st Christmas with out you and it hurts so much, oh how I wish we never went out to look for houses that day baby. I'm so sorry.

Merry Christmas Angel, I love you baby.

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angel girl  / Brenda Lemond (friend)
Baby Jenna, Mom , Dad, and Sis, 
I met you on that horrible day, when  GOD decided to take Jenna away! There was nothing we could do to keep her with us.
She loves her Mom, her dad and her big sis and is waiting for us all in heaven. Close

From the heart of a daddy  / Joe Jen And Teagan Sirakis (Friend)
Chris and Nicole,
Though I only met jenna and nicole once I have known chris for a few years and i know that he is a stand up,respectful,intelligent human being and I know his family means as much to him as mine does to me.I also know that chris's family probably carried on all of those traits,all the way down to little precious jenna,you could see it in her little loving eyes .I do alot of work on that side of town and pass that intersection a few times a week and i get chills and depressed every time i do.I came upon the site right after it happend accidently,as i thought it happened on a different side of town.I saw the picture and pulled over and as i walked closer i felt my knees getting week,then i saw the name"jennabear"....I cried without a care as if she was mine and i didnt care who drove by and saw.The ora around was of tragedy.I absolutly cannot immagine how you feel as parents of such loss when i felt that way and i only met her once.I cry as i see this site or any memory of her and I cant help but to put myself in your situation.We are blessed to learn from such strong people like you to value our little ones because not everyone else out there does as you found out the hardest way you possibly can.Its hard not be repeatative of everyone else but we truely pray for you and your family.We may not have contributed money and time,as you seemed to have plenty of help there and we did not want to crowd you as it sounded like you where but we helped to send prayers and angels to guide you and stregnthen you.God bless you and your family Close

I love you and am so thankful for you.  / Jenna's Mommy (Lucky Mom )
Hi sweet baby,

I am not too thankful today as most people would be.  In fact, I am envious of everyone.  I wish I had you with me on such a "thankful" day.

But I can't be thankful.  I don't have you and my heart is so hurt.  I know I slept alot today.  If you were here, that would be all different.  

I have to say one thing to you though...thank you for picking me Jenna.  Thank you for showing me a love that I never knew existed.  Thank you for loving me, smiling at me, for making me feel so important.  

And thank you for you.  You are so freakin' adorable and when I stare at your pictures, I can imagine what you smelled like, your slobber, and the cute things you would do with your hands.

I truly believe that the next time I can really feel thanks in my heart is when you get justice and then the extreme thanks comes when God brings us together again.  Baby girl, he knows that is all I want.  

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thankyou / Marcce Stewart
i do not know if you remember me or not but i am liz's nieghbor, we had that yard sale ,well any ways,  i just wanted to take a few minutes to say thankyou for mailing me  an update on your family.  i have wanted to get in contact with you so many times but never knew what to say. i know very lame! i think and pray for you and your family often and the lord just really put it on my heart to write you and tell you i care and am praying for you. and if you ever need a friend i am hear to listen or just go play at the park or what ever. my email is above if you ever want to take me up on my offer whether it be now or a year from now  im here . 
in christ 
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Inspiration / Deanna Campagna (PEC Employee )
Dear Eades Family,

I met you at Kindergarten Screening last May. I could tell there was a sadness in your eyes and when I read your registration packet, I was stunned. Then I met Haley and what a delight she is! Such a sweetheart!! I offer my deepest sympathies for your loss. You handle this situation with such grace. It makes me cherish my baby girl each & every day. You are all an inspiration and will continue to be in my prayers.
Sincerely,
Mrs. D. Campagna
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Gift from God  / Cherrell Thomas (friend)
Dear Chris and Nicole

I will never forget your family and the day I heard.  How special I feel to have met your family.  I pray for healing and comfort for you always. 

What a blessing you are bringing out of all this pain.  You guys are so awesome, and may God bless your family even more.  What a wonderful tribute to help others, it brings me to tears for all the comfort, joy and caring you will share in the lives of others. 

We moved out of the area, but will find a way to donate and help make a difference too! 

Until we are all together again take care and God bless your family. 

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Missing U  / Debbi Powell-Viars (Great friend )
Words are hard to find when you want to say something to make it easier on you both, Chris and Nicole. I can say I pray everyday for GOD to make it less painful as we enter into the Holidays. What your both doing with this wonderful foundation is , well just incrediable. Keep your strength and courage together for Jenna is up there in heaven and she is in GOOD HANDS as well as smiling down on you. I often think of you all and I still go by Jennas cross and blow a kiss like I have from the moment I met you both. Stay strong and know I'll be there if you need me. My prayers are with you......and please give that beautiful little girl haley a special hug from me..... Deb Close

Beautiful Baby  / Johan Kohler
It was a pleasure to meet Hayley and Chris today.  I was so sorry to hear about beautiful baby Jenna.  The Jennabears foundation is a wonderful idea, I wish you all the best.  Take care, Dr. Kohler Close

We are very sorry  / Ann Berger (Former Surprise Residents )
Dear Eades, We are very sorry for your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with Jenna and your family. In sympathy, The Berger Family San Juan Capistrano, CA Close

From dad to dad  / Joe Encinas (Friend)

Chris, as a dad you must understand why it has taken me so long to contact you but to this day I cannot begin to undrstand the pain you must be going through.  I only hope that each day gets a little easier for you and your family.  Always in my mind and my prayers.

Joe Encinas

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Sweet Lil Angel!  / Misty
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Happy Birthday Jennabear!  / Barbara Gilliam (none)
How I wish I could have known you Jennabear! Every day I pass the little white cross by the side of the road and pray for you and your Mommy and Daddy. I ask that God will comfort them. Today I saw the beautiful birthday message, on my way to work. On my way home I stopped to wish you a Happy Birthday in Heaven. Jennabear, you were here for such a short time, but you've touched so many people that never met you! Your life was filed with meaning and purpose! You will always be the Little Angel of Jomax Road to me. God bless you and keep you.

Your friend,
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Happy 1st Birthday to the Love of my Life  / Mommy Eades (Forever Her Mommy )
Today wasn't supposed to be a hard day.  It wasn't supposed to be a sad one either.  I walked around the house today trying to find things to do.  I am so used to taking care of you that, even 5 months down this lonely road my arms feel empty and I wait for your voice.  Yet, I started to daydream about this day 1 year ago.  I remember how my heart instantly felt about you.  I remember the way it melt when I saw your face and held you.  No words can describe those feelings.  I was so excited about you coming and immediately leaped to cloud nine at 2:41 a.m.

My 6lbs 15 ozs of sugar.  Your hair was so long, I was so proud of that.  You had your daddy's nose, mouth, chin, and hair line.  Daddy was the first one to hold you and give you kisses.  You were perfect.  I made sure I took real good care of myself while you were in my belly just to say that.  

Never did I realize that I was going to be taking care of a little girl that was so content, so loving, and so beautiful.  Every morning, I would hear your voice...my priceless alarm clock.  You always woke up happy.  For that I thank you.  You made me feel so important.  I know why you were happy, because you knew mommy would come for you.  My mornings were not complete unless I saw your face first thing.  

Every night, you would slowly close your eyes while I held you.  School always wore you out.  I heard the other kids liked you alot.  That's my girl...a personality that goes without saying.  Your pictures show it all.  I remember trying to turn on your night light with my toes while I cradled you in my arms.  You were still getting over a cold, so I would turn on your vaporizer everynight too.  And then I would gently lay you in your crib.  I would cover you up and then tell you how much I loved you and how much you mean to me.  I will never forget what you looked like sleeping.  Exactly like a porcelian doll.  I would put my finger under your nose to feel you breathe because you looked so peaceful.  I always thought, man I am lucky.

And I still am.  I am so darn lucky Jenna.  God treated me to you...I was chosen as the lucky one to love and take care of you.  I was the lucky mom.  Why God thinks that I could handle the pain of you going to Heaven, I can't comprehend.  But, I beg him everynight to take good care of you and let you know that I think of you all the time and you are my everything.  

I can't believe you are one today sweetheart.  I looked forward to this day, just not without you.  I will never understand why this happened honey, but I am so sorry.  Mommy loves you so much.  My heart is all you, you were my happiness.  Now I am just a shell of what I used to be.  And nothing, nothing will ever complete me again until we are together.  

I know you see mommy cry, but that is because she misses you so much.  6 months was not enough time...but it was the best time of my life.  And I promise you, that is the only time I will ever cherish with you and Hayley forever.  I know you adored your big sister, I saw it in your eyes when you would just study her.  

You guys mean so much to me.  I only wanted to give you the best life ever, mommy's promise.  I never meant for any of this to happen baby girl.  There is nothing I look forward to but seeing you again.  And when I do, it will be 9/11/06 all over again.

I bought you some presents sweetheart and I got you a really pretty cake with butterflies.  You will always be my heart and I will always honor and cherish you.  I love you more than all the fishes in the sea. 

Tons of tight hugs and kisses!    

Love forever,
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The Eades Family  / Ms. Kathy Salyers-long (daycare provider cdc )
I am so sorry for the loss of sweet little Jenna Bear. I enjoyed having her in class. The way her precious smile just lit up the room.  She was always a happy baby. I enjoyed having her and spending time with her at the cdc. There is a picture of her on the wall. I just need to take it out and scan it for you guys. I still have been looking thru stuff seeing if their are any other pictures. I think of her all the time. Thank you (Chris) for bringing me the cute little teddy bear yesterday. I have it in my curio cabinet. That is such a great idea of keeping her memory alive. I will definately donate to the teddy bears. May God Bless you all. My thoughts and prayers are with you guys at this tough time. Happy 1st birthday sweet baby girl. I miss you.                         Love Ms.Kathy Close

jennabear i wish i could of met you  / Aundria Shawcroft (like my lil sis )
jennabear and family,
   when you wrote me this letter i sat down and started to cry i am the second youngest in my family and i have a little sister who just turned 3 and i baby sit her all the time just like i do alot of other kids.all the other kids i babysit i consider a part of me because i love them so dearly and if i just had one min. to babysit jenna i know i would love her to her personailty seems so strong and kind that just knowing that she died makes me cry if theres anything i could to help let me know i love kids and i love to babysit them i have fun with kids. Close

Thinking of you  / Rosalie &. Jim Oliverio (Great Aunt )
We are thinking of you today on Jenna's Birthday.  We are praying that your hearts can heal and in time they will. This has to be a very difficult time for you.  Give Hayley a hug.  Love, Aunt Rose & Uncle Jim Close

Sept 11th....  / Daddy Eades (Proud Dad )
Jenna,

Why today had to come without you being here with us I will never understand just know that your all thats on our mind. You are so big now baby girl..1yrs old WOW.  I hope you like the presents Mommy, Hayley, and I got for you. We have been looking at your pictures and telling stories about you all morning, and we left you a big surprise at your cross. I wish it would be different as you deserve so much more.
Thankyou for those 6 months, Thankyou for all those laughs, Thankyou for all those smiles, and more so Thankyou for being my daughter. I live my life for you, you are my all, my big 1yr old Princess. I will always be here for you no matter the time or day, I will always have that fire burning inside my heart for you.
Happy 1st Birthday Beautiful..I still remeber 9/11/06 @ 2:41am at Del Webb Hosiptal, thankyou for that memory.
I Love you
Daddy
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Thinking and praying for your family  / Kevin Rivera (friend)
To Nicole and family, 

Our hearts, love and prayers go out to you and your family in this time of loss and sorrow.  We all have experienced the loss of a loved one at one time or another but nothing as tragic as ones young child.  Please try to remain strong for eachother and for your daughter whom is undoubtedly mourning the loss of her baby sister.  Arlene and I continue to have your entire family in our hearts, thoughts, and prayers......

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