Thank you to our friends afar...  / Mommy Eades (Her Mommy )

I prayed.  You came. 

My family is very tired and very broken. 

You give us hope.  Jenna and Hayley are the only reasons for what I do and who I am. 

I am not malicious.  I am a mother.

Thank you deeply. 

Please help us.  We need you.

 

I love you Jenna.  Everything I do is because I am your mom and I can't just stand back in a dark closet.  I am slowly working my way out.  I love you so darn much.  Jenna...thank you for guiding me and deeply touching the heart of others.  I miss you daughter.  You will always be my daughter and I will forever keep your memory going.  I promise. 

That is who I am and you are all of me.

I love you.  I miss you.  I am so sorry I am still her and you are not.

Life hurts without you.  It will never be the same. 

Mommy

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the star  / Carol Ann Wallace (changed person )

The star I saw last night was the only one I saw, and it was so bright. I think it was Jenna, smiling down on Mommy, Daddy and Haley.

You live on Dear Jenna, as you and your parents affect others and how we now see the world. It is about others. It is our time to ride that star in helping others. Sleep sweetly little one.

 

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Trying to reason and understand...  / Missing My Bestfriend (Mom)

Everyday thoughts pass through my mind...of that day...what I had to see...and how helpless I was.  How you are not here and especially how I cannot fathom that thought...how it just cannot be real.

I see little 2-year olds and think…my gosh…would that be you?  I lost a whole year and a half of you sweetie.

I have the best birthday surprise for you this year.  I have been working hard on it.

I will love you forever and will keep your memory going...forever.

You are missed terribly.

Thinking of you,

Mommy.

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Love isn't even a strong enough word.  / Mommy Eades (Forever Her Mommy )

The words I love you have said so much but not enough Jenna.  My sweet baby girl, how I miss you.  Thank you for being my little girl.  I beg for a sign every day, every night.  I am probably looking too hard, but I would do anything to really know you are here with me.  When I put my arms out to hug you, one day, I hope I can feel your spirit.  I hope you hear me talk to you throughout the night.  I am always hoping that when I walk into your room, I will see your toy move, that everything is just a nightmare.  I hope...well...you will come back...

I am sorry you see me cry Jenna...I just miss you so much.  zi want to see you grow older.  I see little girls that are your age and I want to put pig tails in your hair like that.  I want to give you a juice...and most importantly, I want to hug you so tight when I pick you up from school.  I can't stand that I can't do it...it hurts, it hurts hard.

You are just so cute little girl.  Your brother has your smile!  He reminds me alot of you...but he is much taller, just like a brother should be.  I think he knows you.  I truly believe he met you.  Sometimes, he will be looking at you and smile...like you are sitting right in front of him.

Everything I do for the JENNABEARS Foundation, I do in honor of you and Hayley.  For the two most important girls in my life...I am so sorry you were hurt, I am so sorry that mommy wanted to look for a new home, I am so sorry.  I wish it was me every second.

I promise to be a good person for you Jenna.   Everything I do, I do for you, Hayley, and Baby Chris.  I love you so much...more than you will ever know. 

I love you more than all the fishes in the sea baby girl. 

I can't wait to see you again...I am so empty without you.

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I am terribly sorry  / Lindsey Dann

To Jenna's Mommy:

As a mom of three, I cannot even begin to imagine the pain you continue to experience. Your baby Jenna is beautiful and I know by your words how deeply connected you are to her. I will pray for you every morning and every evening when you should be heading home from work. I realize that this doesn't fix anything for you, but I want you to know how your story has touched me. I've never met you or any of your family, but I want you to know I will never forget you or your story. If ever you'd like to talk, feel free to email me.

 

To Jenna:

Wow! What a beautiful baby you are! Oh how I wish for your parents' sake that you wouldn't have left this earth before them. Still, I know that you are with Jesus watching over them. Please ask him to comfort your family little Jenna. God bless you, sweet angel. 

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For Jenna  / Eric (5.0_GT_kid) Powell (friend of her daddy )

Well Jenna I never had the pleasure of meeting you, but your story has been very touching to me. Although we all miss you and were heartbroken to see you taken from us, it does provide a small amount of comfort to know that you are in a place where you will always be happy.

I hope you know that your family is fighting hard to bring you justice, and even though they are hurting, they are doing so much good for those who are less fortunate. I know you are as proud of them as I am.

We will all miss you Jenna, and I pray for you. I also pray for the good Lord to give strength and comfort to your family.

- Eric

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This can't be happening...  / Mommy Eades (Mommy)

Those words ran through my head and ..."show those nurses they are wrong".  I just couldn't believe that you were going to Heaven.  Couldn't believe it.  You will always be my little strong one Jenna.

11:20 am....I held you, and felt you take your last little breath.  I tried to not let my tears fall in your face.  And then I was worried...worried that everyone would forget you.

I was wrong.  Did you see your candles?  So many people care about you gorgeous.  My heart beats your name...it did at the car show we did for you.

I will always wonder...I will always keep falling...I will always struggle because you are not here.  Till the day I see your precious face again baby girl.

I love you more than all the fishes in the sea.  I am so sorry I failed you.

 

Mommy

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ruined forever...  / Nicole Eades (Mommy)

5:08 pm...I will never forget the sound...the images...you.  It has been 1 year.  I HATE THIS.

Justice is right around the corner baby.  Thank you so much for showing us the way.

I am so sorry I couldn't protect you.  I am so sorry.

I don't want this new life anymore Jenna. 

 

I am constantly thinking of you everyday...and I will never stop.  I owe you so much more.

I hate what happened to you, I hate this life, I hate that I have a cross instead of my daughter!  I hate this. 

I love you pretty girl...my bestfriend forever.

Love,

Mommy

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For Jenna  / Yolanda Wagner (Friend)
I was thinking of you like I always do.  I'm sorry your stay here was so short, i'm sorry your family hurts the way they do. We all miss you very much Jenna.  "Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift  for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity."  Always thinking of you the Wagner family.    Close

Today, 1 year ago  / Mommy Eades (Mommy)

Hi sweet JenJen,

Remember this day a year ago...I will never forget it.  You were six months and I remember thinking...half way to being 1!  We took you to the park for the first time to swing.  You had been to the park before, but you were too little.  I remember holding you, being on cloud nine.  I remember watching you swing with daddy and thinking how lucky I was.  And then later in the day, I remember putting your hair up in that little orange clip, your hair was so beautiful and long.  And then I remember putting you in your swing.  That is my favorite picture.  I can see your belly, how long your hair is, your arms, hand, and your cute, so cute face!  I sit and stare at that picture, looking into your eyes, wondering if you knew...if you knew that mommy only had 20 days left with you.

I stare at that picture daydreaming what today would be like if you were here.  I try to envision you running around with long pretty hair and a personality that no one else can beat.  I know in my heart, you were going to be the top notch out the family.  I used to tell your daddy that you were going to be the president one day.  I just know it.

But the pictures and my Jenna stops at 6 months, 21 days.  I can't picture you any older than that...my little 6 month old...that is all I can see.  And that is all that matters...you are so important to me.

I am trying to be a good person at heart in this new life of mine.  I am trying.  People continue to walk on us, they steal your teddy bears from your cross, they don't say I'm sorry for hurting you...I can't stand it anymore.

I can't stand living without you.  I just want you back.

Happy 18 months baby...I can only imagine.

I love you more than all the fishes in the sea.  And I miss you more than anything.

Mommy.

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That time is coming...  / Mommy Eades (Heartbroken Mom )

Hi beautiful baby girl...I miss you.

No words can explain the break in my heart more than those 3 words.  I miss you so darn much.  I am scared baby, scared everyone is forgetting about you.  Everyone is moving on...and I will NEVER move on. 

The year mark of that horrible day is coming up.  I am sick...I can't stand the weather, it reminds me of when you were here and how I didn't have a clue what was about to happen.   

I owe you so much and you deserve so much more.  I don't deserve to live...you do.  I can't stand this new life of mine.  I just want my happy family back. 

God, please grant me this one wish...can I have my Jenna back?

I love you more than all the fishes in the sea beautiful.

I am trying to be a better person.  I really am Jenna, but I am so angry and don't understand anything anymore.  Nothing is worse than losing you.

You are so perfect...and I am so darn lucky to have met and been able to share my upmost love with you.

You are my everything,

Mommy

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you stole my heart.  / Shelly Castaneda (Jenna stole my heart )
Jenna, I didn't get to know you in this life, other than the beautiful tribute to your life that your parents are doing such a wonderful job of keeping up.  I can say that I am very glad to have met such a wonderful little girl and read about her beautiful little life.  All your photo's are just so sweet...  I can see why your mommy aches to have you in her arms again.

Make sure you send your Mommy some loving kisses from above. Reading what she writes hurts to read and she needs some one to help her through, and the fact that you are her little angel makes that job just so perfect for you.  Let her know nothing was her fault, and that you knew you were loved. Very very loved.


Many kisses send straight to you.
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I miss you so much...  / Mommy Eades (Mommy)

Jenna,

Where did I go wrong?  I am so sorry that you are not here.  I would do anything in my past to change that day, I want you back.  I am sorry I wanted a new house, I am sorry we drove that day, I am so so so sorry.

I am so heartbroken.  I don't know how I am going to go on...I just can't, I just can't.

Your little brother looks so much like you sweetheart.  I am trying to be happy, I know you want me to be, but I can't.  I get to hold him, but not you.  I hurt so bad.  My heart hurts so bad.

I am so sorry you got hurt baby, I am so sorry I couldn't protect you.  I failed you.

I would do anything to have you back...I want you here, in my arms.

You will always be my best friend.  My heart is so broken.

 

I love you gorgeous...thank you for picking me to be your mommy.

 

I love you Jenna.

Momma

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All I think about is you....Merry Christmas Jenna  / Mommy Eades (So in love... )

Hi sweet baby.  How is your Christmas with Jesus?  Mommy bought you a little bear and it says "Little Angel" on it.  You will always be Mommy's Jennabear though.  

I miss you so much.  The pain is so strong everyday, Christmas doesn't make a difference.  Maybe because I don't care about it?  There is just no way I could ever celebrate this day again.  For your sister, I am strong.  But my heart aches Jenna, it hurts so bad. 

Everything is just unfair.  Jenna, why does everyone have their families?  Why did God take this happy life from us?  I can't ever imagining being the same on Christmas.  Daddy and I talked about what you were doing last Christmas.  We try to remember every little detail of your sweet life baby girl.  Those memories are what we cherish the most now.  I just can't believe it has been almost 9 months since I saw that face that melted my heart.

I don't know who I am anymore.  I used to look into your eyes and you would say it all.  I was confident of who I was then, maybe because I was on cloud nine with you.  Now, I just look forward to being with you.  It's not fair that you are there and I'm not.  It's not fair what happened to you. 

I owe you so much more.  I beg God for us to switch places.  I am so sorry Jenna.  Mommy is so sorry.

You will always be my no. 1 girl.  I just don't know how I am going to live this life without you.  Especially days like these when most families are happy and together, and yet, I am sitting here wondering what we did so wrong to deserve this.  

I hope you like the Christmas tree at your cross.  It is so pretty.  But as always, you deserve so much more.

I will never forget you or be the same.  My heart only beats your name....

I love you more than all the fishes in the sea baby girl.  You are my everything.  I look forward to seeing your face again...

I love you.

Mommy

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Merry Christmas Jenna  / Daddy Eades
Today has been so hard for me, alls I think about is you. You would have been so big by now and really enjoyed Christmas 07'. I love you so much, and I just wanted to tell you Merry Christmas. Your mom and I put a christmas tree at your cross, I hope you liked it baby girl. It's Christmas Eve and its dark out already.....oh how I'm dreading tommorow. How I will make it thru the day is beyond me. Christmas now means nothing, I only smile when Hayley talks about it. This is our 1st Christmas with out you and it hurts so much, oh how I wish we never went out to look for houses that day baby. I'm so sorry.

Merry Christmas Angel, I love you baby.

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angel girl  / Brenda Lemond (friend)
Baby Jenna, Mom , Dad, and Sis, 
I met you on that horrible day, when  GOD decided to take Jenna away! There was nothing we could do to keep her with us.
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From the heart of a daddy  / Joe Jen And Teagan Sirakis (Friend)
Chris and Nicole,
Though I only met jenna and nicole once I have known chris for a few years and i know that he is a stand up,respectful,intelligent human being and I know his family means as much to him as mine does to me.I also know that chris's family probably carried on all of those traits,all the way down to little precious jenna,you could see it in her little loving eyes .I do alot of work on that side of town and pass that intersection a few times a week and i get chills and depressed every time i do.I came upon the site right after it happend accidently,as i thought it happened on a different side of town.I saw the picture and pulled over and as i walked closer i felt my knees getting week,then i saw the name"jennabear"....I cried without a care as if she was mine and i didnt care who drove by and saw.The ora around was of tragedy.I absolutly cannot immagine how you feel as parents of such loss when i felt that way and i only met her once.I cry as i see this site or any memory of her and I cant help but to put myself in your situation.We are blessed to learn from such strong people like you to value our little ones because not everyone else out there does as you found out the hardest way you possibly can.Its hard not be repeatative of everyone else but we truely pray for you and your family.We may not have contributed money and time,as you seemed to have plenty of help there and we did not want to crowd you as it sounded like you where but we helped to send prayers and angels to guide you and stregnthen you.God bless you and your family Close

I love you and am so thankful for you.  / Jenna's Mommy (Lucky Mom )
Hi sweet baby,

I am not too thankful today as most people would be.  In fact, I am envious of everyone.  I wish I had you with me on such a "thankful" day.

But I can't be thankful.  I don't have you and my heart is so hurt.  I know I slept alot today.  If you were here, that would be all different.  

I have to say one thing to you though...thank you for picking me Jenna.  Thank you for showing me a love that I never knew existed.  Thank you for loving me, smiling at me, for making me feel so important.  

And thank you for you.  You are so freakin' adorable and when I stare at your pictures, I can imagine what you smelled like, your slobber, and the cute things you would do with your hands.

I truly believe that the next time I can really feel thanks in my heart is when you get justice and then the extreme thanks comes when God brings us together again.  Baby girl, he knows that is all I want.  

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thankyou / Marcce Stewart
i do not know if you remember me or not but i am liz's nieghbor, we had that yard sale ,well any ways,  i just wanted to take a few minutes to say thankyou for mailing me  an update on your family.  i have wanted to get in contact with you so many times but never knew what to say. i know very lame! i think and pray for you and your family often and the lord just really put it on my heart to write you and tell you i care and am praying for you. and if you ever need a friend i am hear to listen or just go play at the park or what ever. my email is above if you ever want to take me up on my offer whether it be now or a year from now  im here . 
in christ 
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Inspiration / Deanna Campagna (PEC Employee )
Dear Eades Family,

I met you at Kindergarten Screening last May. I could tell there was a sadness in your eyes and when I read your registration packet, I was stunned. Then I met Haley and what a delight she is! Such a sweetheart!! I offer my deepest sympathies for your loss. You handle this situation with such grace. It makes me cherish my baby girl each & every day. You are all an inspiration and will continue to be in my prayers.
Sincerely,
Mrs. D. Campagna
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