2 YEARS OF FOREVER.
Remembering my sweet Jenna Lynne Eades
9.11.06 - 4.1.07
Forever 6 months, 21 days old.

Dear Jenna,

2 years ago, I held you in my arms. I touched your little toes and felt your soft hair. I always kissed you on your forehead. That was Mommy's special spot.

I look at your pictures everyday. I think about that particular picture moment; what happened, what you were doing, how heavy you felt in my arms...every little detail. I don't want any single memory to slip away. All I have are pictures when all I want is you Jenna.


I will always remember.
I remember when Daddy took you to the park and came home excited to tell me about how you scooted all the way off the blanket. Or he always had to have socks on your feet because he was so worried about them getting cold. I remember how I was picture crazy over you, I thought you were the most beautiful thing ever! I remember how I couldn't feed you fast enough, you ate so good. Or how I would wait until you fell asleep in my arms, carry you into your room, turning on the nightlight with my toes so I wouldn't disturb you. I remember how excited you were to see me every morning. I remember how I used to tell your Daddy that I thought you were going to be the next president because you had a personality that was going to make you something big. I am still convinced.



And today, I wonder.
I wonder what kind of personality you would have at the age of 2 and if you would be telling me "no!". I wonder how long your hair would be since it was already so long and all over the place. I wonder how much fun you and Hayley would have playing barbies. I wonder what it would be like to pick you up at school and what your favorite happy meal would be at McDonalds. I wonder what you would look like or wonder what your little laugh would sound like. I wonder about how we would be wrestling, all 5 of us, on the bed.


I would do anything to have you back. My heart loves you so much Jenna. It's exploding with love and I would do anything to give it to you. Anything. And while I still can't comprehend what has happened, I now face 2 years since I last saw you...and can only hope and pray in the end, that it only seemed like a day to you.


2 years of remembering, wondering, and missing you. Loving you is all I know and all I will continue to do.


I love you more than all the fishes in the sea my sweet Jennabear.

Forever my heart and everything,

Mamamamamamama (as you would say)
Nicole Eades

Jenna is 2!

Our sweet Jenna Lynne "Jennabear" Eades was born on September 11, 2006.  She was the most happiest, loving baby.  We will always be the luckiest parents in the world.  Jenna had an awesome personality, always smiling, never fussed.  Her teachers at school would say that she was their favorite, people everywhere would stop to comment on how beautiful she was.  I loved showing her off.  Jenna is my bestfriend, the love of my life. 

March 31, 2007 at 5:08 pm would be the last time Jenna would see, hear, or know the world.  A truck violently rear-ended the vehicle our family was riding in...the impact was too much for our little Jenna.

Jenna became the most precious Angel on April 1, 2007.  I held her in my arms while she took her last breath.  My heart, which was hanging by a painful thread after watching my children suffer...ripped completely.

I pray for justice for Jenna daily. 

My Children are
my Life
my Strength
my Legacy
my Motivation
my Everything.